I want to know who you are because even though I’ve got tears streaming down my face and I’m blowing my snotty nose into millions of tissues, this made me actually really happy. Thank you a lot anon. You have no idea how internally happy this made me because those are honesty words and I know soon (or not), everything will be okay. Thank you so much. I love you. I don’t want to post this so everyone can see this but I just really want to let you know how much better you made me feel.